How YTP Helped me Learn What Self-Esteem Means to Me

My name is Amanda* and I have been in YTP one-to-one counselling for seven months. In those seven months I have never had a better person to talk to than my YTP counsellor, Emily*. In October, I had come to the Y with an arm full of cuts and a heart full of sorrow. Just last summer I had come to Edmonton to live in a treatment home and my life was not going so well. I always missed my mom, I didn't have many friends at school, and I had low self-esteem. The treatment home is a good place, but I felt that the counsellors there didn't understand me, or didn't care.

Ever since my first talk with Emily, I knew this was the program for me. She was always understanding of my feelings and never judged my thoughts. Before I met her, I thought youth advolcates and counsellors were just paid to pretend to care, but boy, did she prove me wrong. She comes every Thursday and I anticipate the day. I feel cared about when we talk. She has also come on unscheduled days when I really needed her and talked to me through Facebook when I was bawling my eyes out. She goes above and beyond.

Thanks to YTP and Emily, I have better self-esteem than I did before. I realized that boys and relationships do not make the world go 'round, but the love of yourself, friends, and family does. I have also come to terms with the fact that I don't want to stay at the treatment home, but I know it's for my own good to get better. Furthermore, I now have fair self-esteem. I think I am an amazing, strong woman who can do anything she puts her mind to. I may not be the slimmest or the tallest, but I am still beautiful in my own way. I can see my potential in singing, school, and my future in general. Thanks to Emily I understand my life is not sunshine and rainbows all the time, but my life is still amazing and I love it!

*Names have been changed for privacy. Photo does not reflect participant.